Broken and starving!!

Well...in the doctor's exact words..."your lungs are broken and you're starving yourself"!!! How's that for a diagnosis!! Lol! Took all the strength in me today to get myself and Bia ready and then walk out to my waiting chariot to go to the doctors. Cheri (lady from church) was so gracious and offered her services to take me and then watch Bia while there.

I was so weak that she stood in line for me and then when I got to the room I had to prop the upper part of my body on my hands on top my lap to be able to stay on the table!! There was really nothing the doc could do for my weakness. He explained things this way. When you get strep throat or some other type infection the meds will hit it and you'll feel better in a few days and look at the remainder of your meds and say, I don't need these...I feel better. When you have pneumonia your lung is basically broken. You'll take your 10 days of meds and look at the empty bottle and say...I need more meds I feel terrible. I had asked him why I felt worse now than when I did right when I was discharged. I also asked about the nausea. He there explained that I was going in a vicious circle. I take my meds (which require food) and beings that my stomach is empty it reacts in a bad way. So when I do try to eat to calm down nausea...my stomach thinks that the food is what is causing my nausea and so on and so forth. My heart is also working in overdrive at 116 beats to make up for the oxygen my lungs are needing.

So...my charge is to attempt to nibble all day long if necessary on toast, crackers or whatever I think my stomach won't get rid of so that the meds won't tear me apart. He explained I would be feeling worse b4 I got to feeling better and that by Christmas I should feel partially like a normal person where my strength was concerened as long as I can start eating. HOWEVER....(I wasn't too thrilled with this) I wouldn't be feeling "like dancing again" until mid January as my lungs have to first fight that infection and then rebuild themselves.

That's me in a nutshell. I'm broken and starving myself! It did make me laugh (which came out in a strangled kind of gargle!) so that was one good thing about it. If I can't get food into my system within the next 3 days I have to go back. So I'm going to work extra hard at tricking my stomach into thinking food is a good thing!