Bday!!!

Happy bday to our sweet, young lady :) She's growing so fast and is so much fun to be around. Love her so much. I don't think it will be too much longer and I'll be looking up to her. She's already as tall as me and doesn't appear to be slowing down in the height department!! We are so proud of her and how she has matured and is allowing God to work in her life. So to a wonderful daughter, we love you and are grateful that you are a part of our lives!!!

Wings

Here's your smile for the day :)

Last night we were on our way to the camp that Troll is speaking at this week. I'm not exactly sure what we were talking about but evidently at some point my unrepareable car came up. Not sure if we were discussing what we were going to do with it or what but from the back this is what we hear and what followed.

Bia says, "We need a new vehicle." I turned to her and said, Yes honey we do but we will just have to talk to Jesus about it. I then hear a big sigh (as if in resignation) as she says, "Ok, I'll do it. (even bigger sigh) But I already have talked to Him."
I was kinda taken back at her declaration and was getting ready to ask her what she had talked to Jesus about when she emphatically says, "Yup! I asked Him to give me wings and He didn't!"
I had to then explain to her that evidently Jesus decided that it was better for her to walk around and He doesn't always give us what we think we need. :)

It was a sweet moment. One in which I'm glad happened. It reassured me that even our youngest understood that we can ask even the most profound things and God doesn't care how crazy it may seem :) And I will add.... I'm glad God didn't answer her prayer for wings or I'd never get to see her :)

The pits!

Alright! I'm gona have to admit it...I feel like the pits today. Sure that's a glorified pic of what normally is referred to as "the pits" but I put it on there for a reason. My reason? No matter how rough it gets...there is always something good about what surrounds the pit.

I'm gona have to admit to being ultra human today in that I don't know what the good is that is surrounding that pit! lol! That is something I don't like to admit to. I like to be tough. In control. Not given to tears. (yes, yes..all you ppl that just gasped and said there was nothing wrong with crying...I KNOW there is nothing wrong with crying. And even when I do cry... I just don't like it.) But today I've not seen the bright side. Even though I worked hard at being positive and telling myself not to cry cause God would show us in HIS time.....I've not had a good day. True, I didn't cry (that is...until I got to church and I got the thumb in my back to testify) and was doing pretty good at staying in control (on the outside)....but on the inside I was suffocating.

So why did I have such a rough day? You know...in all honesty...I don't know why today was so rough. I get so aggravated that I get low cause ultimately I KNOW that God will work things out. But today I couldn't conquer the sadness and hurt inside. The kids and I do a good job I think. We are a good team and do our best without Troll here. Some ask what the big deal is. Well...in many aspects I'm a single mom. Troll gets one day off a week. Some still say, So, that's no big deal. Well true...its not really. But the thing of it is that the other days he doesn't come home. Its an hour and 20 min drive or so to where he works so he stays up thru the week at a friends house. So the night before the day that he has off he comes home after work. Which ranges anywhere from 11:30 p.m. to 1:10 a.m. (depending on how late they work/cleanup). Don't get me wrong...we are both so very thankful for him having a job. Its just hard not being able to be a family. Eth and Beeps cry allot more over things than they used to and I know its cause they miss their daddy. Thankfully the oldest three can cope better and they are a huge help to me.

And there you have it....my whine for the day. :) I don't mean to complain or gripe about our circumstances. It's life. I just felt like telling you (the poor ppl that read this post) a rambling tale of how I felt today, how much I miss my hubby, how much I dislike being daddy/mommy and how I know that tomorrow will be better :)

I will do my best to not post like this again!! Lol!!!
Nite all!